Survivors blog - Introduction - The I entry

Hm…so how do people start these things…Emmm should I introduce myself to a diary? Hm… no that would be silly, or would it not?

Well fine future me if you will ever lose your memory this diary will have main information about you, ow wait me... Damn I got mixed up!

Ok so my name is Roan, I am 25 years old, though most of the time I either feel like I am 17 or 40. So I am studying for my masters’ degree in archaeology, and I am stressing out all the time since it’s the last year.

I am always tired, and grumpy, and just simply overworked. But I guess it will end soon, so once I will finish university.

Well I guess that’s it with introductions. Oh now I feel soo much better now that the piece of paper is properly introduced to me. Is it normal to humanize inanimate objects? I hope it is, because lately I started doing it very often. First it was my computer, than mobile phone, pens and now this. Och…

Anywayyy, lets move on.  I really can’t get into my psychological issues right now.

So I have been stuck in my house for at least 3 days. Why you ask? (oh… seriously now I am having a dialogue with my diary. If I will start hearing its answer I will be done. DONE). So the first reason is because its cold as hell outside. Wait that’s not right. Hell supposed to be hot right? Oh anyway I am getting of topic. So the second reason is because I have been writing this paper for university and it feels like I have been writing it for eternity. I guess staying at home for a very long time really does affect your capability of telling time.

Though I guess I shouldn't complain about it since one good thing did came out of it – I am totally healthy. For a last few days or so all I can hear on tv is that there is a new virus which is very contagious. It has same symptoms as a simple cold – high fever, coughing and so on. Though it sounds very serious but I guess it will go away as all new types of floe does. So I am not worried and neither are doctors. Yet still I am happy that I am pretty isolated right now, I guess the last thing that I need is getting a cold while having to finish the most important paper in my life (well at least now it’s the most important, hopefully in the future I will have many many important projects).

Also me and Kathy and Dorothy decided to go on a diet as well as start our new workout plan. We really need get into shape before summer. So from today I will be also writing my food count in here.

Today’s menu:

Breakfast: nothing (well I overslept :D)

Lunch: Coke, pepperoni and cheese pizza (I have no idea how much calories this is I guess I should start counting those).

Dinner: Some green tea, a bottle a glass of vine (I am totally classy and drinking healthy drink evens it out right?), some salad with chicken, and a bag a small portion of chips.

Ok… I lied about some of the things, I guess its hard to be true to yourself and I will need to work on that…

Till the next time! I am going to do a quick workout and then go to sleep.

Ohh who am I kidding I will go to sleep right now.

I guess tomorrow will be a better day…

Starting up - or what is a survival blog?

So first things first. Who am I ? Why I am here? And why would anyone would be interested in this… And lastly survival blogs? Really? Common…

I am Laura I am 24 years old and my main area of expertise is archaeology. Not the Lara Croft kind but the one that spends hours and hours in the middle of the fields and then spends even longer period of time leaning over the books and trying to understand what the heck did she got herself into… Though I did played all Lara Croft games so I guess in a sense I could say I am partially familiar with that kind line of work. I mean I wassss an expert in riding a motorcycle in a temple while jumping over some strange machinery. Oh hm… wait… Yeah.. I guess that still can’t be counted as a real experience…

Sometimes I really question my life priorities...Hmm… I really should stop thinking that I am a character of the game it’s so unhealthy…Even those inner monologues now are branching into dialogues. Who new that I have 5 different opinions on every subject. It’s like five totally different roommates are living in my head. The positive me always tries to put a a nicer spin on everything, while the negative me always says the opposite which of course creates a clash between two of them. The realist me tries to calm down those two pesky parts and the immature me simply loughs at everything while making stupid jokes that are not even connected to the topic. And that’s exactly when the judging me comes out and simply slaps herself across the face (mental slap not literal) and simply says oh my god do I really have to be here? Oh hm…What I was talking about? Oh right!. As I already said my main area of expertise is archaeology and if to be more exact – medieval archaeology, though from a very young age I liked creative writing. I started doing that when I was a 6 years old, and my first short story was about why the sky is blue. I mean not to brag but at the age of 6 I already knew that the sky is blue because of the painter that accidentally spilled all his paint while he tried to color the huuuuge house. Wait that’s not true? Prove it I dare you :D

But all joking aside I did really started enjoying writing at a very young age and haven’t stopped ever since. I wrote short stories, long stories, even tried to write a few books. But something was always missing. I mean I always enjoyed the ability to let your imagination flow freely, but at some point I would always hit the wall of em…what next? I did loved the world that I created or the characters that felt like a real humans, but something was always missing. Motivation? No… New experiences? I don’t think so. I couldn't put my finger on it until I reached 6 grade. I had to move to another country (for 3 years) and I had to learn new language very quickly. So one and very effective method was starting playing video games that would be written in that language. And… very soon I was not only fluent in Russian but also addicted to games.

Something about that huge and magical world attracted me the very first minute I started playing in it. Maybe ability to create your own future without being afraid of consequences or maybe maybe a mere fact of actual visual experience that really drawn me in….Until this day I can’t say why but something clicked inside of me. So I started playing more and more, and for some reason the games started inspiring me to write my own more game stale based short stories. And so years past and here I am! I am in love with games, but now I need more. I need to not only be an active participant in a game world but also an active creator of it.

But instead of jumping into it I deiced to take things step by step (I guess studying does give you some kind of idea of structure that can be used in your own life).

So I did what I do every time when I encounter some new artifact:
- Collect
-Research.

-Research some more.

- Have a long and tiring inner monologue that sometimes leads to outer monologue and makes people think that your crazy.

-  Research even more.

- Write down your findings and put thoughts in correct shelves.

- Wrap it up.

- And finish work by providing results.

I figured that the best thing that I can do now, is to actually put my thoughts in line. And what is the best way to do that? Blogging. 

I figured that putting my thoughts out there could not only help me to figure out whether my ideas are worth something but also would let me figure out my own thoughts. 

Why would anyone would be interested in reading this? 

Truth to be told I don't know. One thing for sure those who will become interested will be able to emerge themselves in the new fantasy world and see things throw my eyes, be the players of the game that will evolve as we all go...

So now what is the survival blogs?

It's a fantasy game that involves in making a virtual game world with deep stories and action filed world, but without actual game. I will try to emerge myself in a world were humanity is no longer the ones that rules the planet Earth. Where you have to fight for your life, and have to enjoy simple things. 

I hope that in a future we will be able to create something amazing - a community of survivors who will treasure everyday joys as well as create new bonds between different people in all parts of world.

But hey that's just one part of the idea and only the time will show whether it will be something great or will it fall and crumble :) 

So for now Welcome to the world of survivors! We can do this! Or not...